Friday, July 20, 2012

Chinese Songs~

Yes, you did not read wrong. I'm sharing a Chinese song here. I've been listening to more Chinese songs since I started working. There are quite a few songs that I really like so here are two of them. Same title, but different artistes.

Both songs are titled 暗恋 which is secretly admiring or having a crush on someone. 

Here's 暗恋 by 陶喆.

暗恋 by 張智成 

May these songs bring the same bitter-sweet feelings to you as they have brought to me. 

Upon returning to Singapore, I'm brought back to reality. I thought I cleared my thoughts when I was in Bangkok but apparently not. Going to bed is now like a double-edged sword. Before I actually fall asleep, I have to battle with my thoughts which are armed with sadness and pain. But when I finally conquer that, most of the time I get pleasant dreams as a reward.

However, in the end, it doesn't matter. 'Cos no matter how nice and how realistic the dream was, when the time comes, I wake up and realize, it was only just a dream. Ahh~

I want to travel again. I guess, only when I'm travelling, I'm able to put down these thoughts. I need to travel. It might not be the solution, but it is the painkiller for me now. (So 'cheesy' & cliche. Whahahaha!)

All in all, I need to travel soon. A short getaway seems lovely.

Monday, July 2, 2012

I'm flying off!

After months, weeks, days of countdown, I'm finally flying off to Bangkok tomorrow! 


Excited to the max for my trip this time round. Few reasons why I'm so hyped up. 

1) I'm travelling again. (Duh) 
I think I have been bitten by the travel bug since secondary school. One of my resolution is to travel to a new country every year, or a country that I love going back to. So this time, Bangkok is the place for me. Or it might be Taiwan for this December. 

2) Travelling with my awesome sisters this time round! 
Have known Xin Ru, Xin Yi & Xin Lei since we were kiddos. Though we have been friends/sisters for so long, we've never really been on a trip like this together! Xin Lei & I shall be lovely light bulbs this time round. Xin Ru's boyf is stationed in Bangkok while Xin Yi's boyf is also travelling with us. 2 couples & 2 single ladies. Never mind, Xin Lei shall be my temporary boyf. Whahaha! Really looking forward to spending time with them!It's just too bad Joy & Jean couldn't join us this time round. But then, there will always be a next time ya!

3) Bangkok = Shopping Paradise!
YES! SHOPPING! I've kinda of cold turkey-ed myself from shopping for quite some time. So I have a feeling I might go crazy there. Hehe~ I'm bringing a really large EMPTY luggage there. So yea, gonna fill it to the brim. And if I don't shop, means I have no clothes to wear for the rest of the time I'm there. 

4) Away from family
As much as I adore my family, sometimes I just wish to get away from the dramas and nonsense. This 1 week will be a good time for me to recuperate and be more prepared for whatever stuff they have when I'm back. 

5) Some alone time away from..
Yes, hopefully taking some time away and not being able to see some people will allow me to clear my head and know what I truly want. 'Nuff said.

So tadaa~ I have so many reasons to be excited about tomorrow! Muahaha! Oh! And I forgot to mention, Jas Ang and her boyf will also be travelling to Bangkok this week and we'll be flying back together. And my Penang cousin and her husband will be there too! Super coincidence and uh, yea. Light-bulb again. >.>

Been feeling much happier recently. Maybe it's cos July is here and Natsu is gradually approaching. Means Yukata time! Eeeps! But I know the main reason why. I really feel love from my friends. My dear sisters and my dear 'family'. By this 'family', I do not mean the ones from the No. 4 reasons. They are friends who I feel so thankful to God for putting them in my life. Really grateful to have them. 

I know that in the month of June I have worried quite a few people. People from all different stages of my life in one way or another. I'm sorry if I couldn't speak to you much especially about why I was downcast. I know that maybe just by telling your troubles to others might relieve the burden from my shoulders but I just couldn't do it. I'm really thankful for the concern you guys gave. And I want to thank God for placing this good buddy of mine back in my life. Really. And with this, I should really stop blogging and go settle my Bangkok itty-bitty details. Like printing the boarding pass and all. Jaa! Cya in a week's time! In the mean time, thanks to my friend's constant nagging and bargaining, I've signed up for Instagram in exchange for not bringing my camera to Bangkok. Username is JoXianna! Will be posting up goodies from Bangkok! 


So many things to say..

Was contemplating for a few weeks whether to post this or not. After a talk with a really good buddy who reminded me to not be easily led around by emotions and to always have my brain with me, things became clearer in a certain aspect and I've decided to just take it as it is. But still, this was what that had been 'tormenting' my head in June, making me moodier than ever. But now, I'm feeling much better. So yea, this is just something that I really want to let it out of myself, and maybe, just maybe, put it behind me.


So many things to say yet I have no idea how or where to start. Fear grips me in the heart as I hesitate. It was not supposed to happen. I don't think I've ever felt so insecure in this aspect before. I have no idea what to do actually. A part of me fears the consequences and the response but against other alternatives, I'm not sure which will be the overall winner.

As a quote I've read recently, "If you love someone, be brave to tell them, otherwise, be brave enough to watch them be loved by someone else. "

But what exactly is love? I wonder really.

"I'm not saying I'm in love. I'm just saying that lately, he's all I think about."

The feelings I have currently definitely exceeds the usual feelings I have for a friend but what exactly are they? Even for this quote, despite telling the person you love them, you might still have to watch them be loved or love someone else. It does not mean that everything will end happily after the confession. I wish it does. Pssft~

"I wanna tell you how I feel, but I'm scared. Scared of you not feeling the same and scared of falling harder."

"Maybe I'm scared because you mean more to me than any other person. You are everything I think about, everything I want."

I really am out of my wits. I have no idea what I'm supposed to do anymore. Sometimes I feel like I'm just head-butting the walls. Or just going straight into a trap knowingly.

Been mulling over this matter for quite some time. I did not want to face my feelings at 1st as I felt I could rid myself of it but it seems like the more I try, the harder it is.

"I think about you all the time. You're always on my mind. Yet I feel like there's nothing I can do about it."

So true. How many countless nights I've spent thinking of you. Thousands of dreams regarding you, regarding us. Sometimes, the dreams just feel so real that upon waking up, I wished so hard that it was real. That it was not a dream but reality. Alas, it wasn't.

Well, I guess I'll follow the motto as I've always done for this aspect. "If its yours, its yours. If its not, no matter how hard you try, it will never be. "

Or maybe I should update it a little with a new quote too.

"If two people are meant to be together, eventually they'll find their way back."

And so I wonder if we're meant to be together. 

Wednesday, June 27, 2012

Just a song that I wanna share~

Kinda of like this song a lot. Came across this song when I was Youtube-ing. Sometimes I prefer these original songs that the Youtubers come up with due to the lyrics. For me, I really enjoy the the music, her voice and the lyrics. 

Presenting - Baby, I Love You (Tiffany Alvord)

Tears - Happiness & Sadness

I started my birthday with tears and ended with it too.

No, I did not cry the whole day. There's a difference for those 2 tears-fest. 

When the clock striked 12 midnight on 26th June 2012, I felt overwhelmed with sadness and just broke down sobbing. I just sat there and 'stoned' for a really long time before picking myself up and proceeding with my usual activities.

And just, at 11.59pm on 26th June 2012, I started tearing again. This time, the tears came due to the happiness I felt in me. I felt so much love from my friends and without them, I wouldn't have as much fun today! 

I really feel so blessed for having them in my life. I know I've said it on FaceBook and all but I just can't help it. Words just can't seem to express how grateful and blessed I feel towards them. 

This is just a short post and I will update again soon about it~ I'm really tired now but I just feel the need to blog it out 1st! There is no better word to describe this moment than jubilant.

Kimberly, Sarah & Evangeline:
Thank you to my dear girls for coming down. Despite your hectic schedules, you made time for me and I really appreciate it! We're all growing old and in a blink of an eye, we've known each other for almost 10 years. Thanks for always being there for me! 

Danny, Trixy, Xiang Min, Sherwin, Kim Kai, Ban Theng, Wendy, Fook Yu & Steve.
Thanks for coming down today! Really appreciate it and I really really feel so blessed and loved to have you people in my life. I'm really glad to have met you all and thanks for making this such a memorable and awesome day for me. Words really can't express how I feel but still, I'll try my best. May we have many more good years ahead of us! ^^

That's all for now, I'll blog more in detail tomorrow I guess, if I'm not knocked out by tiredness. I think I might finally be able to sleep well, like finally. At least for tonight, I don't want to think so much and just sleep. 

Tuesday, June 26, 2012

I wonder..

Random short post.

Spend the last 5 minutes of my 21st year underneath my block. Decided not to go home yet. Mulling over certain stuff. Upon reaching home and after exchanging pleasantries with my parents, somehow, I just went straight to my room and watch the rain. 

I don't know why but it just rained. It just did. Maybe it was too sunny earlier, too much vapor or whatsnot collected up in the sky. 

Alrighty~ I shall have a good rest and look forward to the rest of the day. Cheerios~ =)

Wednesday, June 20, 2012

What am I doing?

I don't know. Truth to be said, I have no idea. Recently, I've realised how easily I can be affected by certain things or people in my life. Good or bad, I have no idea. Depends I guess. 

Been feeling irritated at myself lately.Maybe it's the weather, the boredom, the upcoming even that reminds me of how old I am or maybe, just maybe, I'm blaming it on everything except  that one 'THING'. In short, I believed I know the reason why I'm feeling irritated. Simply 'cos I feel useless for not being able to accomplish such an easy task. 

And there I was, few months ago being all strong headed about independence and living well on my own and now, being pathetic, confused and upset. Over a person.

Yes, I'm mindless ranting but I decided to just try typing it out. I knew I had to do it after I couldn't sleep this morning and realised, "Damn, I'm really affected by these simple damn things!". 

Sometimes, I just wish we can read what's going on in their minds, it might make things so much simpler. On the surface yes, but there are definitely serious consequences to bear if we really managed to do that. 

All in all, I guess after writing this down and stuff, I'm still lying to myself about how or what I feel for that person. 

Monday, June 4, 2012

Déjà Vu?

Recently there's been quite a few changes going on in my life. Some new, some welcomed, some unexpected and somestuff that gave me a déjà vu feeling~

June, somehow my June are always filled with doubts and upset thoughts. Same goes for this June, it did not start well but I enjoyed myself thoroughly today. Going off for a short trip later on and I hope that this will be a trip where I get to relax myself and also clear up some thoughts. Wish me luck in this and I do hope I'll be able to update more when I'm back!

Catch you peeps soon! =D

Thursday, May 10, 2012







Flying up to Penang early June with my Dad and then flying off to Taiwan with my Mum. And that's just for June! Don't forget my Bangkok Trip with the gals in July!~ Woohoooo~

I so love travelling~ Going back to Penang always feel like I'm going back home in another way. Missing the food there so badly. Ban Theng & I will always talk about the delicacies with each other with a T^T face. And now, I finally get to go back there and enjoy~ Only 1 more month to go!

Though I went back last year, but as it was with friends, I did not really manage to visit my relatives there. And it's been a really long time since I went back to Penang with my Dad. We would often wake up really early just to go for breakfast and just hunt for good food. Ahhh~ 

Alright, just wanted to write out my excitement or I doubt I'll be able to sleep~


Bon Voyage

Summer has barely started and I'm bidding goodbyes to 3 of my dearest friends. 

1) Joy who left for U.S on Monday for a month.
2) Zhi Sen who just flew off today for U.S for 3 months.
3) Kim who's flying off to Thailand tomorrow for 1.5 months. 

Ahh~ All of them are flying off and I'm kinda of 'stuck' here till my overseas trip. 

Went to the airport today with Ban Theng to send Zhi Sen off~

Here's wishing a safe trip for all of them and may they have a blast there! =D

Was planning to work till end of June for this summer to ensure I don't just idle my time away but then Dad proposed an idea - Family Trip in June. 

To Taiwan. 

So that kinda of puts a damper on my working plans. And he had to tell me that after I spent a whole week searching for jobs and going for countless interviews. Countless. >.>

So yea, more or less confirmed going to Taiwan with my parents in June and off to Bangkok with my gals in early July. Not going to work this summer but instead, tie up all the loose ends.

Like for example, get my dmn driving license. Yea.. And clean up my room. It's 70% done. Just left with some cabinets and then it's time to clear my wardrobe. Create more space for my hauls from BKK. =P

But besides driving and cleaning up my room, I felt like going for some classes. Mum sorta asked me to continue learning Japanese while Dad asked me to go for some cooking class. =3=

Any recommendations? Am revising my old stuff online now. 

So besides those 'boring' stuff said above, I've been busy with my movies, dramas and of course chillaxing with my friends. =D Shall share more about it next time but for now, my dreams are calling me. 
Maybe more tomorrow~ Jaa!

Friday, April 27, 2012

What is your phobia?

The title says it all.

What is your phobia?

Phobia - An extreme or irrational fear of or aversion to something

I'm pretty sure everyone has one. I think I have a phobia of scary/horror shows or books or anything related to it. I have no idea why but I just get freaked out by those stuff. Like those books my peers used to collect during our 'innocent' childhood days - 'Goosebumps'.

I love reading and one day, I decided to read one of them and boy, horrible mistake! I couldn't sleep for a few nights. I actually crawled into my grandma's bed and huddled next to her till the next morning. And I was 11 or 12 at that time? *shudders*

So I know, those books aren't for me. And then there was this time where my family had the tradition of decorating our Christmas tree together and during decoration, we would normally just switch on the TV. The show that we were watching together was a live-action of Kindaichi or at that time, I knew it as 金田一. When we were done decorating and it was time for me to go to bed, part I of the show ended. And I had to wait till next week to know what was the ending. FREAK!! I had to spend 1 week thinking of the ending and I remembered it was pretty scary for me as murders were involved within a group of friends who were out camping or so. Needless to say, I spent that 1 week curled up with my grandma again. >.>

And even after I watched the ending and knew that the murders were committed by some crazed human or so, I was still convinced that someone or something out there was gonna grab me. Pssft. I guess, the position I sleep in now is probably due to this incident. 

As you can see, I dread horror shows or books. Along with that, I dislike clowns and dolls. Not Barbie dolls but those dolls with creepy realistic looking eyes. URGH! Whenever trailers of these type of shows pop up in the cinemas, I would just close my eyes and cover my ears, well, to the best that I can.

And obviously I would not go watch an horror show willingly. OBVIOUSLY! But there are still people who try to persuade me to go along with them. And for them, I usually compromise by saying that if they fulfill 3 requirements, I'll go along.

So what are these 3 requirements?

1) Pay for my ticket in. (No way am I gonna pay for something which I have no interest in)
2) Buy me enough popcorn and drinks to last me for the entire show. (I need something to entertain myself.)
3) Bring blanket, earmuffs and something cuddly for me to hug during the show. (Yeaps, that's the main thing, I'll be huddled under the blankie, happily munching the food and being oblivious to what's going on.)

BEST! Hahahaha!

Ridiculous requirements right? But that's what you need to do in order to get me into a horror show.

Till today, I've only been into the cinema ONCE to watch an horror show. And apparently it wasn't really an horror show but more of a comedy-mixed-horror movie. =.= I remember the title of the show was 'Drag Me To Hell.' and I guess it did for that hour or so. =3=
But the 1st two requirements were fulfilled I think, the last one was kinda of tweaked I guess. No blankie or earmuffs but there was something for me to grip on to when I was scared out of my wits. 

I doubt my heart can take it~

So why the sudden talk of phobias?

Well, yesterday I was watching an 'horror' show. It was kinda like the 金田一 show I mentioned before but the ending was..... There's no ending yet. T^T So after the show last night, I wrapped myself in my blankie and didn't dare to get out of my room. Even when I wanted to go to the toilet. To make things worse, there was a really strong wind at that time and I could hear the door 'Kong. Kong. Kong.'!! Like there was someone there! Oh gosh, I tried so desperately to shut my eyes and force myself to sleep but to no avail. Only after much praying and keeping my mind off that darn show, I managed to. No grandma for me to hug this time round. 

So moral of the story, do not watch an horror or similar show at night... alone.

For me at least. Hahaha! Though I learn through psychology that it is possible to overcome your phobia during conditioning but I think I'll just go with the other way - Avoidance. =P

So what are your greatest fears or phobias? I know there are some weird phobias like Melophobia (fear of music), or Arachibutyrophobia (fear of peanut butter sticking to the roof of your mouth. =.=) or even Panophobia which is the fear of everything. Yea, I know right. o.O

I know there's this disgusting photo where a girl had like hundreds of holes on her arms and it kinda of 'test' whether you have the fear or phobia of small holes of something. And that photo was just bugging my mind that entire day. Urgh! And now, maybe it's in your mind too. =P

To take your mind off that, here's some pictures of Lassie with her favourite blankie. =D

Thursday, April 26, 2012

Summer has started and I'm filled with so many mixed feelings.

Happy, sad, lazy hyper, lonely, busy, bored~

Yea, you get it.

Was supposed to go out today but didn't manage to in the end. Only went for my driving lessons and came home. Was feeling nostalgic so I went to dig up some old stuff and it made me miss the old times. Times when I was so carefree and happy. And as I continued reading on, I could feel the troubles creeping on my self then and so on. If only we didn't have to grow up, if only, things could stay the way they were then..

But if they did remain as they were, there would be no growth. 

Thoughts like these were flying through my head for the past week. I think stoning at home and not having to work mentally is causing these thoughts. During these times, I yearn for someone to just give me a hug, pat my head and tell me that everything is gonna be alright. Just like when you're a kid and your parents used to do that. But I guess at this age, it's kinda of hard. We can't just dream anymore, but it is time to start working hard and change these dreams into reality. 

I guess, with that being said, I need to start finding things to occupy myself to prevent my brain from wandering aimlessly and lest I delve deeper into the past and start living in it again. 

Alright! I can't wait for next week to arrive! Because there's gonna be..


And I'm proud to say that I've packed up majority of my room! Looks so much neater! And at the same time, I've found some awesome old goodies! Shall share them in the next post~ =D
Time for my drama time! Enjoy the upcoming weekend! Jaa~

Monday, April 16, 2012

Worrying as usual.

I gotta be crazy, blogging at a time like this. But truth to be said, my brain is mentally exhausted from all the squeezing and stuffing of information. 

Just needed to let out some thoughts here. My resolve seems to be weakening. I do hope it can continue to be strong. At this point of time, the one I can look to for help is the Lord. He knows what's best for me though I gotta admit, sometimes I'm lost as to what and where He wants me to go. 

Like the saying goes, it is easier said than done. Especially for this particular mind boggling thing that is currently running throughout my head. 

I thought I could do it, but judging from how things are now, my confidence is shaking. I don't think I can. I don't think I've ever felt so uncertain in this 'genre' in my life. 

But then again, I might be thinking/worrying too much. Maybe I really do need to seek some 'help' as what my  test suggested. LOL! I shall just stick to my usual quote.

What's yours will be yours. What's not yours, no matter how hard you try, it will never be yours. Because it was never meant to be.

Time for my experimental sleep! After tomorrow, I can finally let out a sigh of relief~ Finance is over & International Economics is going down tomorrow!

Ending this post with two quotes that I came across recently and really liked!

Each morning when I open my eyes I say to myself: I, not events. have the power to make me happy or unhappy today.  ~Groucho Marx

Nobody can take away your pain, so don't let anyone take away your happiness. ~Unknown

Cya soon! >.^

Saturday, April 14, 2012

Sleeping experiments~

I'm up so early on a Saturday!


Well, not really that amazing since I'm up early to study. Ya, right after this 
blog post. =X

Another reason why I'm up is due to the fact that I've been adjusting and experimenting with my biological clock. Like adjusting my alarms to a certain cycle to see whether there are any effects. So far, I've been feeling more energetic and definitely remembering more dreams recently.

Energetic, good.

Dreams, uhhh~ Not a good or bad thing I guess

My dreams for the past week have sorta been similar. Same person, similar themes. I might actually be happy IF only I didn't have to wake up and find out it's all just a dream. (And gosh, this sentence sounds like a line from a primary school composition.)

And this is the part where I insert the really cheesy line:

I rather have you plaguing my dreams than to have you out of my mind.

*shudders* Ok, end of cheesy time! Hahahaha!

I'll be experimenting more sleep habits after Thursday! I can't wait for it to arrive! That's when my summer starts! 19th April, 1030!

Alright! Back to studies! Gonna bake some yummilicious cookies later! Hopefully like what they say, third time's the charm. =D

Leaving you peeps with this song cover, Safe & Sound by TeraBrite. Introduced by Sherwin.

Wednesday, April 11, 2012

Welcome Home~

What is the best thing someone ever said to you?

Or maybe made an huge impact on you.

I guess some would say it's the famous three words: 

I love you

But to me, recently I found out what really impacted me a lot are these two simple words:

Welcome home~

Simple ya?

So simple and yet it can affect me so greatly. For me now, these words matter more to me than any declarations of love. Or maybe I'm just being cynical of the word 'love'. To me, the word 'love' is overused in today's times. Even for myself, I'll often ask, what is love?

How do you distinguish 'like', 'love', 'lust' and 'infatuation'?

Don't ask me to google it. =.= 

Anyway, back from digressing, why do I mention the importance of this now?

Because, recently, someone important to me who I respect greatly too said these two words to me. Well, three if you add in my name at the back but ya. 

When I heard these words, I just felt, 

'Oh yea, I'm home again. This is where I'm accepted for who I am and people who cares for me.'

Okay, it's not with a nonchalant tone but I was deeply touched when I heard those words directed at me. I feel accepted again. I mean, how many times have you heard those words? Somehow, I don't hear it frequently. Maybe it's due to growing up in an Asian culture where feelings aren't openly shown and as far as I can remember, the only indications my parents gave when they know I'm home are:


I'm not saying that I do not feel love from them but it just so happens that whenever I return home, they're busy with work or so and maybe within a family, it doesn't seem that important to say such greetings.

But I'm telling ya, it makes a difference!

Try saying these words to the next family member when they reach home. I'm not saying that it will have an impact on them immediately where a spotlight suddenly shines on you but it will slowly affect them. But if the next family member is an irritating sibling, you can skip it. Pssft. >.> I doubt I'll ever say it to my brother.

Alright! Ignore that last piece of 'advice'. Be nice to everyone, even if it's an irritating brother sibling. 

I wanted to do this post up earlier but I was kinda of overwhelmed with feelings. Somehow I'm a very very emotional person which is both a good and bad thing. More on that next time. So why overwhelmed?

Hearing someone said that he/she has never given up on me was and that was because he/she knew I would eventually find my way back. That was enough to make my tears fall. 

Upon hearing those words, I didn't know what to say. I feel like just saying thanks would not suffice at all. But deep down, I know what I have to do. Be there for them just as they are for me and most importantly, do not disappoint the people who care so much for me again. 

I've felt quite lost at times, being caught up in the hectic life of a undergraduate and feeling like life is just all about academic. Remember what I said about finding back who i really am, the crazy, fiery & 'blunt' person in my birthday post? I think I'm able to start on that search mission again.

Somehow, I feel like the prodigal son who has just returned home. He returned home not because he had nowhere to go, but because he knew that deep down, there is no place like home. As cliche as it sounds, this is what I'm feeling right now.

Monday, April 9, 2012

Whazznots I've been up to~

And with that, the long weekend is over. 


But then, this weekend was really fulfilling for me! And I shall tell you why it was so.

I spent Good Friday at Ban Theng's Birthday Celebration which was BBQ style and he managed to roped quite a few of us as his slaves for that day, especially poor Sherwin who had to be the chauffeur for his goods. Tsk tsk.

Random picture of me going out~ 
Dyed my hair the night before. I don't think it's as golden/bright as before but it's not the colour that I had hoped for. T^T

Met Ban, Kim Kai, Theam Huat & Sherwin earlier to go prep some stuff, like the setting up of fire.

Which was really hilarious as the night before, the few of us were discussing what was the quickest way to set up the fire.......... and the convo contains bits & pieces of 

- Burning newspaper
- Lots of google links
- Collecting twigs for the BBQ
- Going to MRT station & collect all the Today newspaper (ok, that was a lame joke by me. =3=)
- Some doughnut fire setting technique.

But ya, you get the point. =.=

And in the end, the one who set up the fire was..... 

None other than Ban' mum. LOL!

And while she was setting up one BBQ pit, you can just turn around and see 5 guys huddled over the other pit trying to set the fire/maintain it. LOL. 

Auntie FTW! 

Hahahaha! In the end, Auntie managed to set it up faster I think.

Guys hard at work~

Birthday boy being busy~

Me enjoying my eye-power seat & Kinder Joy~

Don't you think the Chrysanthemum tea looks like cooking oil?

Lovely marshmallows cooked by KK~ *yums*

Ban's 1 year 3 days of milo supply & Milo balloon from Shaun & Katie!
 Look at how happy Ban is grinning. Hahahaha!
 Apparently the two of them had to go compete with lots of small kids to get the balloon. Hahahah! EFFORT!

And of course, it wouldn't do to end off the celebration without some alcohol which Sherwin has so generously provided and poured. Hahahaha!

Look at the line of people waiting to have a toast with the birthday boy! 
And there's where it ends, at least for this blog post. *winks*

All in all, it was a really great day, being able to meet up with lots of people I've not seen for some time and also knowing some new ones. That's all from me for now regarding Part I of my long weekend, stay tuned for Part II though I have no idea when that will be. Muahahahaha!

Hope everyone had a great rest during the weekend & is all fired up for this week!


Thursday, April 5, 2012


Alright, if you guys followed me on Twitter, you would have seen my tweet regarding me having a mild case of GAD & OCD.

Mild, that's what I think.

So what's GAD & OCD?

Generalized anxiety disorder (GAD) is a pattern of frequent, constant worry and anxiety over many different activities and events. 


Obsessive-compulsive disorder is an anxiety disorder in which people have unwanted and repeated thoughts, feelings, ideas, sensations (obsessions), or behaviors that make them feel driven to do something (compulsions).

Alright, I just googled them and those were the 1st links shown. Hahaha! But essentially, they were what I was learning about in Psychology class today.

During my readings, I read about GAD & didn't think much of it until Prof made us do a quiz to see if we're a worrier. Out of 13 points, majority of the people scored like 1, 0.7 and the highest I knew was a 4. Which implied that they weren't worriers. Can you guess my score?

I was like, "I'm screwed".

And right above my depressing score of 8.34 was a line from my Prof which goes:

If your score is 7 or above, you have a lot of worries.  You may be at risk for GAD.  You should seek advice and further assessment from the SMU Counseling Center.

Needless to say, I got teased badly by my friends after that.

So I was wondering, do I really worry that much? There were 4 main things that I listed down in my 'worry list' which were my studies, family, friends & future.

Don't people worry about them??!!

Gosh! And to add on to this 'discovery', when reading up about OCD, I realize I have a few compulsive behaviours. Like checking my bag repeatedly to ensure my wallet is there and pushing the door several many times to ensure it's lock. Small case, but I should just remind myself not to let it increase.

So for those people who were really concerned & messaged me, don't worry, it's just an official diagnosis from Dr. Jo. Hahahaha!

Anyway, just read something on my bestie blog and wanted to share! So sweeeeeeeet! And please, do not upload those old neoprints. I'll faint on the spot. Even looking at them, I think I will. (I'm your faithful stalker too! =P)

Tomorrow is my last day of school! Woohoo! Then it will be a week of studying before going for the final sprint: Finals! It's all gonna be over on 19th April! After that, I'm going to enjoy my summer!!

But before that, FINALS....=.=

Shall amuse myself with hairdye tomorrow~ Have shortlisted on a few colours but not really sure which one to go for~ Oh well, you get to see it tomorrow on Twitter I guess. Heehee!

Shall go off & rehearse my final presentation. Before that, shall share a small lame joke I made. (My friends insisted that it was a sign of GAD in me. Pssft!)

*Jo & Jian Hui queuing up for awesome pasta @ SMU*
*Pasta Stall Auntie recognizes us as people who always choing down during break to dapao food*

Jian Hui: 1 Carbonara please.
Pasta Stall Auntie: Ok! *scribbles order*
*JH pays*
Jo: Auntie, 1 Carbonara!
Pasta Stall Auntie: Oh, you two are together right!
Jo: Nope, we're not together but you can put our orders together! *smiles*

*Friends at the back face-palmed and die*

If you don't get the joke......... Well, I hope you do get the joke.

Hahahahah! It was pretty funny! Gonna miss my group mates a lot! Alright, more from me soon! Jaa~

Tuesday, April 3, 2012

One of my moods..

Been feeling downcast-ed recently. Have no idea why.

Alright, that might be a lie. I think I know the reason why but just refused to face the truth.

Maybe it's also due to my lack of sleep that's causing this. I've been sleeping only a few hours a night. Sometimes, it can be like 1 hour, if it's good, I can get 3 hours of sleep. I have no idea why but sleep seems to be evading me. If I do fall into slumber, dreams plagued me.

Hopefully all of this will soon be washed away.

Shall share a few stuff here~

Songs that have recently captured me in some way or another, mainly the lyrics.

Beyoncé - Poison

Avril Lavigne - Wish You Were Here

Sorry for such an emo post, I promise I'll try my best to cheer up and make this into an happy blog again!

P.S. Thanks to all who showed their concern & tried to cheer me up. <3 ~

Something that I chanced upon in FaceBook today. Felt it was quite a good description of how I am. Don't take it seriously yea~

By the way, it's in Chinese so Google Translate might be your good friend if you're interested. :)

【巨蟹座】 (6月22日 - 7月23日)















Friday, March 30, 2012

How will I measure MY life?

Today was the last lesson with my Management of People at Work (MPW) Professor. He posed us this question last week:

How will you measure your life?

There was an article regarding this by Clayton Christensen where he answers this question with 3 more questions:

1) How can I be sure that I'll be happy in my career?
2) How can I be sure that my relationships with my spouse and my family become an enduring source of happiness?
3) How can I be sure I'll stay out of jail?

I think all these 3 questions are really relevant, even the last one. Maybe some of us might just dismiss the 3rd question but don't. You never know what happens in life.

Christensen also talked about how important it is to know what is the purpose of your life and that, it might be the most valuable thing you ever learn. He goes on by saying that the knowledge we gain from our academics will be applied occasionally in our future but we will definitely apply our knowledge of the purpose of our lives everyday. 

That sentence had a great impact on me and just got me thinking. What is the purpose of my life? I know that ultimately whatever I do, it is for the glorification of God but what is the thing I can do best?

Hopefully I can get an answer soon.

I typed out quite a long essay regarding these 2 main questions. Maybe I'll post it up next time~

But in regards to the career-happiness question, I remember a quote that my mum always say,

"I have the best job in the world. I am paid to do what I love best."

As for the relationship-happiness question, my family are my parents now and that's all I can see now in regards to my future. Whether I will have a spouse, I have no idea. But as for my friends, they are definitely my family too. 

So, with these questions, I leave you peeps with one last quote by Eleanor Roosevelt that is kept close to my heart.

"Happiness is not a's a by-product of a life well lived.”

Thursday, March 29, 2012

USS - Us Siao Sillies!

Pardon me, that title is not conjured during one of my more genius moments.

So, as the title states, this post is about USS!~ 
Maybe I should do up the post of me in Disneyland. Though it's just Hong Kong Disneyland, nothing fabulous but still, IT'S DISNEYLAND!!
Okay, back to USS~ Kim and I decided to go there early this year as a day for us to chillax and catch up before our hectic school life takes over whatever remaining social life we have. It was also considered a really late 21st birthday celebration/present for her. Like really late! It wasn't our 1st time there, I think we both went once before, Kim with her family while I went with my Uni friends, Hui Ying, Jon & Eugene.

We went on a weekday which is equivalent to no horrible crowds! As Kim was more familiar with the place, for once, she was my tour guide. =D

We grabbed breakfast at this diner joint which she recommended. Food was pretty good but what I like about the place was the awesome layout and decoration~

I guess I always have a thing for American diner style.

Caught a nice hair flip from Kim~ *Loreal*
During breakfast, we started planning our route for USS~ And this time round, I think I managed to fully enjoy the attractions in USS.

Kim and I caught the musical, the Monster Rock. It's pretty good! Hahaha! Should try to catch it if you can, they have quite a few showings.

One thing I really like is walking down the Hollywood streets of USS. It helps create a soothing feeling for me and I can imagine myself walking down the actual streets. 

Of course, there are mascots that are always there to entertain us!
The famous PO! 


As CNY was approaching, Kim and I decided to rub his belly for 'cai'. (Cai means wealth) Just kidding~ =P
We saw the Joker running around. hiding behind bins and jumping out now and then to randomly scare passerby. Gotta say, he was really into his role.
Oh yea, check out Kim and my new car! Hahaha! I so wish that that was my car.


And if you see Bumblebee, you get to see...... OPTIMUS PRIME! Wooooohooo! I think I was damn excited when I realize that there was a  Optimus Prime mascot. I was running and jumping to the line and was totally disappointed when the staff told me that I had to wait for the next session. But still, I managed to rush back for the next Meet & Greet session and got my photo with Optimus! =D


Some of the other random mascots around.


We didn't really meant to take a photo with the guy on stilts but then, he was walking around alone and just seemed kinda of sad, so oh well, might as well right?
That's roughly all the mascots that we managed to meet. Was quite sad that I didn't get to see Puss in Boots. ヽ(´□`。)ノ

For the rides, the main one we both wanted to choing for is latest ride: TRANSFORMERS! Thank goodness it was a weekday and the queue was really short and we managed to go on it twice! The ride, is just awesome! Though you might get a little dizzy and at the end of the ride, you MIGHT end up with a sore neck. Kim and I both did. 

The next one that I really wanted to go was the B
attlestar Galactica  Roller Coasters! But Kim, having been on it before advised me not to right after our meal 'cos we will feel quite woozy after that. Which was really kinda of true! I felt so 'floaty' after the 1st coaster but we still rushed for the 2nd one right after that! Woohoo~ The ride is really awesome~ Thank goodness there wasn't any crowd and we got front seats for both coasters! This is a must-sit ride! But not after a full meal~ ^_^

We skipped some of the rides, mainly those in Madagascar town as they were more suited for kiddos~ We actually went on the children roller coaster at Far Far Away just for laughs. Kim and I got the whole roller coaster to ourselves! Hahaha! She video-ed down the whole process when we were on the ride and it was just so darn funny.

That day was a really fortunate day for us at USS! When I went to USS previously, the water ride, Jurassic Park Rapids, closed down that very day and was not opened..... until that day we went! We were so exhilarated when we spotted some people in the ride when we were 'flying' over it! Kim was in such a hurry to dash over that she actually left her slippers behind! Whahaha! The ride was really good but I thought the one at Genting is much better~

We took our time to walk around and managed to went twice for the rides that we enjoy~ I met one of my primary school mate there and it was amazing that he recognize me. And it was kinda of scary how he got my attention. It went:
Kai Xun: Joanna! 
* Oblivious and deaf Jo* 
Kai Xun: JOANNA!
Jo: *turns 1 round* Did anyone call me?

*stares at the group of army guys on the Mummy Roller Coaster*
Just before the ride left, 
Kai Xun: JOANNA!

And so, there was I trying to figure out who yelled my name and had no clue! How could I differentiate my friend, who I have not seen in years in a group of army guys? Hahaha! Later, I only found out when he texted me. Pssft!I told him I thought a mummy was calling out to me. 

Another interesting show that you just gotta watch is the WaterWorld Stuntshow! 


Their enthusiasm, stunts and playfulness are just so, WOAH! Prepare to get wet! No matter where you're seated at! Kim and I were kinda of gungho, so we sat at the 1st row. It was really fun! Halfway in the show, one of the guys came up to me and hugged me! He was trying to hide from the others so I had to play along. Shan't spoil it for anyone who has yet to watch but it's awesome! 
We spend most of our time, we walked around, enjoying the view. That day was pretty hot so we decided to splurge and get ourselves potion bottles! Tadaaa! 


Being my retarded self~ 

Some other random photos here:

Welcome to my future palace~

Oh! We spotted this lady drying her clothes and look at her inventive way! Hahaha!

We spotted the Reese mascot after exiting USS and just had to take a picture with it. 


And after I tried 'eating' it, the people who were queuing behind us did the same pose. Ahh~ Sorry Reese!
It was a really great but tiring day~ Managed to have a good catch-up session with Kim! Much thanks to Kim's mom and brother, Don for driving me home~ Can't wait for the next one! Cheers to our strong friendship and may it ever grow and never break! ヾ(@^▽^@)ノ

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