One of my moods..

Been feeling downcast-ed recently. Have no idea why.

Alright, that might be a lie. I think I know the reason why but just refused to face the truth.

Maybe it's also due to my lack of sleep that's causing this. I've been sleeping only a few hours a night. Sometimes, it can be like 1 hour, if it's good, I can get 3 hours of sleep. I have no idea why but sleep seems to be evading me. If I do fall into slumber, dreams plagued me.

Hopefully all of this will soon be washed away.

Shall share a few stuff here~

Songs that have recently captured me in some way or another, mainly the lyrics.

Beyoncé - Poison

Avril Lavigne - Wish You Were Here

Sorry for such an emo post, I promise I'll try my best to cheer up and make this into an happy blog again!

P.S. Thanks to all who showed their concern & tried to cheer me up. <3 ~

Something that I chanced upon in FaceBook today. Felt it was quite a good description of how I am. Don't take it seriously yea~

By the way, it's in Chinese so Google Translate might be your good friend if you're interested. :)

【巨蟹座】 (6月22日 - 7月23日)

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当巨蟹低下头跟你道歉，当巨蟹为你放下冷漠，当巨蟹为你流眼泪，当巨蟹为你做傻事，当巨蟹为你疯狂，当巨蟹为你冷落朋友，当巨蟹为你收敛霸道脾气，当巨蟹不断关心你，当巨蟹因为你喜怒无常；他放下了尊严、放下面子、流出眼泪还默默忍受：这是巨蟹爱你爱到骨子裡。

有时候，巨蟹希望时间停下，就这样和喜欢的人地老天荒；有时候，巨蟹发现身边的人都不瞭解自己，面对身边的人，突然觉得说不出话；有时候，在自己脆弱的时候，想一个人躲起来，不愿别人看到自己的伤口；有时候，巨蟹突然很想逃离现在的生活，想不顾一切收拾简单的行李去流浪。

巨蟹座一生都在寻找和等待一个懂自己的人。当被人误解、被人呵斥，蟹蟹只双眼噙满泪水或保持沉默，不愿意解释。因为蟹蟹一直相信如果你爱我，那必须懂我。所以蟹蟹在一些人眼裡会显得有点儿敏感，有点多愁善感。很多时候蟹蟹很想有个依靠，去理解蟹蟹，去对蟹蟹说：我懂你。

如果你爱上了巨蟹座，请你想清楚，
你是否会用尽全力爱上她的全部。
她的哭，她的笑，她的任性，她的敏感；
她的纠结，她的宽容，她的善良，她的温柔；
她的依赖，她的自私，她的天真，她的粗心；
她的疯狂，她的安静，她的情绪化，还有她同样用尽全力爱上你的全部的那颗心。

这个带著母性光辉的巨蟹是个有著浓浓怀旧情感的星座，至少要让他们感受到真切的情意，如果一再的暗示，等待似乎也成了无限期，对方还是没有什麼表示，那麼，他们也就不再说什麼了，因为是说出来后再给予的只会是要来的温柔，已失去了原本的意义，沉默的伤心，再悄悄的走了。
有时候超爱说话、有时候可以一整天不说话高兴的时候会拚命说话、不高兴的时候一句话也不说巨蟹座最注重的就是安全感希望被保护、却常常还是一个人。

巨蟹座很爱面子、遇到喜欢的人不会轻易地表露出来，除非你先表明心意、你永远都不知道、其实巨蟹也一直喜欢你。
巨蟹座们很爱朋友、无论和谁都能好在一起，所以请你别背叛巨蟹，因为巨蟹很容易哄、很容易就会原谅你的过错。

巨蟹座的孩子：
有点笨、有点疯、有点傻。
有时神经很大条、对朋友很真心。
面对爱情、怕受伤、爱逃避。
有时会很绝情、却还是心软。
很懒、怕孤独、爱安静、爱吃东西。

巨蟹座的人往往有点可爱、有点任性。
心计不多、闹完了不记仇的，心胸宽广、只是别激怒他。
他的热情可以把你融化，他会用偽装的冷漠和麻木吓退所有的追求者、只有真正懂的人才可以珍惜，为了爱、他可以放下所有的骄傲。

巨蟹很爱家、很念旧，不容许别人侵犯他的地盘，内向、把自己的心事埋在心底，但能成为别人倾诉的对像，习惯自己去面对自己的问题，胸部不是很平坦、就是很丰满，心情像月亮、常变化。

巨蟹平时总是嘻嘻哈哈、什麼都无所谓，可转过头、笑容裡分明有几分无奈。电话那头千嚀万嘱巨蟹、而回答总是＂我很好＂我没事＂放心吧＂。

巨蟹一个人呆著就会莫名其妙的想发呆、不知道想些什麼、又好像什麼也没想，总想找一个人倾诉、可是真有那麼一个人时、却又不知从何说起。

巨蟹座很恋旧情，内心设防较严重，很专情，真的喜欢一个人的话可以喜欢很久。生活态度很认真，感情略微有些慢热。一旦受伤后会记住很久，不容易癒合，但是会隐藏自己的内心，如果积攒了过多情绪的话，有可能会在一瞬间爆发。倾向於幽默的言语表达，信唸经常会随著现实的转变而变化。

巨蟹很容易恋爱、也很容易不爱，在他们心裡会有一个很爱的人、这个人对他们很重要！他们像个病人一样爱著这一个他很爱很在乎的人，就算他们不适合、没有在一起、巨蟹还是会爱也不会轻易放弃，因为他们很难找到一个他们很爱的人，他们对自己不好、有自虐倾向、但是他们却对自己在乎的人很好。
偏执、认定了的事就不会改变，也很内向、心中的话绝对不会说出口，他很难去真正相信一个人、永远孤独，告诉别人我很好、心中的苦自己才知道。

永远活在壳裡的胆小鬼，所以..巨蟹座的人很奇怪..

..... Knock knock?

Greetings earthlings!

I've just escaped from the mothership and am back to report my safety status.


Okok, I'm just joking~ It's been more than a month since I've last blogged and I do apologise for the lack of updates! I did arrive safely back from Vietnam, no worries about that, but there were just piles of work and shit for me to settle resulting in the 'dustiness' of this bloggie!

Many things happened and after much contemplation, I've decided to just move on. Sometimes, no matter what you say, what you do or what you want doesn't matter, So why bother?
Maybe it's harsh, but I guess, it's just me. Maybe it's all a facade, maybe it's not. I don't know. Sometimes, I'm lost trying to find myself too. But that's what life is all about, isn't it?


Alrighty!

No more emo-ness! My blog can't take too much of it~ XDD

Anyway, the past month has pretty hectic. Meet-ups, school, church and many more~
I had lots of meet-ups to do upon arriving back to civilization from Vietnam. Missed Kim, Leen, Joy & the 'Sisters' so much lar!

Speaking of Vietnam, it was a blast!

I had an awesome time there and it's gonna be one of my deepest etched memories! (inside joke) Tons of photos were taken and I have no idea where to start blogging about, but I'll try. Heex. Hopefully I'll be able to do up a small post regarding it during the CNY week. =)

Lots of random updates regarding this past month that if I were to list them all in this post, it will probably flood my blog. Hahaha! Some notable updates are gonna be like my church's Xmas Nite, meet-up with Kimmy Kim Kim and beach shoot with Leen, Kuromi & Haru.

My 2nd semester @ SMU has started and I feel like I'm getting to be more studious this year. Seriously! Maybe my transition to SMU is finally done~

Gonna start working hard!~がんばって!

Currently in class now but as my fingers started to itch, I knew I had to blog for just a teeny little while. Heex.. Shall end off here now but I promise you that you will not have to wait sooooo long for the next post kay? So do stick around here and while you're bored, do clickie-click on my ads. Ms Jo here needs to find a job pronto! Do email me if you have any job lobangs orhkay? XDD

Cya for now and don't miss moi too much~ =p

The crazy things we do..

*psssssss*

Heard that? That's the sound of me deflating.

Hahahah! Just kidding. Today is the last day of Term 1 for me and I''ve survived!!


Wheee! End of project choinging days but my mugging days are FAR from over. Got the finals coming up soon. 5 of them too. Boohoo!

Anyway, just to upload some nonsensical photos that I took recently with my crazy bunch of friends. You can call this the sequel to the POC post earlier! =p

Met up with Kim, Anand, Jabez & Choon Hong for a farewell celebration to Anand & Jabez's hair~ Yeaps, they're finally going entering army. Or in present form, they're in army now!

So in the midst of my crazy deadlines & all, I managed to meet them for a couple hours before rushing for my project meetings & stuff!

So while chilling & having completed our 'illegal dealings', we decided to have some fun on Kim's webcam!

Here are some of the crazy stuff we do!

P.S. I was totally high that day due to the lack of sleep that apparently most SMU students experience during that few weeks.. so, you'll get to see a crazier ME! Yay! =p

Presenting the Crazy 5!

The electrifying Jabeeeez!


Fireman!


The drunkard.


The animated girl.


The ghostly human~


Think I was entertaining them most of the time... as usual? What oh what will they do without me~ Hahahaha! Yes, I'm BHB!

More photos coming up next!

Can you guess who's this?


We're all on fire!


And equally knocked out!


Meet Jabez & his twin.


We're pretty hungry too!


I want gum gum you dum dum.


No gum gum? I'll eat others!


Christmas is here!


Wheee! Many many Jo(s)!


Hoh! I see the light!


Koochi Koochi Koo~


Rahh! I guess I'm really crazy!


That's all for our crazy photos.... for now I guess. =p

Tomorrow's AFA and who's going? Am super excited as there are a few activities that I would like to try out there! Wheeee! Can't wait for it! Am gonna go down on both days so do poke me if you are too!

And last but not least, Harry Potter Snape, Hermione & Draco are coming back to the big screen!

Wheeee!

Okie! Gonna need my sleep now! Cya soon!

P.S. This picture is meant to counter & maybe lessen my craziness level that people think of me after seeing the above photos. Hope it helps! =p

I'm blessed. Are you?

I feel so blessed as I'm typing this post.

Why?

Isn't that simple. Count all the blessings that you have received in your life. And I mean ALL.

We've always been taking things for granted and they are the most important things in life.

Reason why I'm talking about this is 'cos I've recently joined a volunteer program to help kids in Vietnam.

It's an OSCP from SMU and I'll be going to Vietnam this December for 19 days!

I'm really excited and am looking forward to see the kids & teenagers there. We'll be teaching them the English language and when I heard that the Kindergarten students had zilch knowledge of English, I suddenly felt so so so dmn blessed! It's not that I'm laughing at them but just think about it. When we were in Kindergarten or even before we went in, we could speak not 1 but 2 languages already! And how did we pick them up? Through our family, friends & of course television.
TV is like such a norm to us now but to them, it's a luxury.
(P.S. I'm referring to the place that we are going, not the whole of Vietnam lah!)

Projectors in our classrooms. We're so used to it but they don't even have it.

That's why I said I feel so blessed as I type this post out 'cos it proves I can read and type. And you reading this post means that you have a grasp of the English language.

Don't you feel blessed already!?

But oh wells, if you still don't feel anything then I can't do anything.

Besides teaching them, we'll be building a kitchen for them too! Thank goodness we're building it and not cooking for them or goodness knows what will happen when they eat my cooking.
The only food I can cook well on a stove is instant noodles? And I cook it really well okay!

Hahaha! Anyway, really looking forward to my trip there as not only will it be a visit to a new country but I so love the people who are going together! My OCSP team is like an awesome bunch of people! Loads of fun with them. Return date was on the 20th Dec but decided to extend it to 23 Dec to do more sightseeing! Saw some touristy photos of Vietnam and the views are WOW!

Can't wait to see them!

I'm getting so hyped up about my trip till I've lost track of my main topic of this post!

Anyway, if you would like to help these kids out, here's a chance for you to do so!

We're looking for in-kind donations to bring over to them. Mainly books, so if you have any good education books which you think will be useful for them or knows any place willing to donate, please email me.

Or there is another method that you can help too!

We're having a booth at SMU for this week and we're selling imported handmade slippers for Vietnam. Really pretty & unique designs! Am so tempted to buy them for my own!


It's only $10 per pair!

There's male designs too so if you're interested in any, do drop me an email or come down to our booth which is opposite Studio Wu.

Ice-creams are yummilicious too! Think I'm gonna get fat from selling them as I eat as I sell! Hahahaha! And there's more! Yami yoghurt & Eskimo bubble tea are coming your way too!!! I think I'll need more exercise this week! Lol!

By the way, my email is joxianna@gmail.com

Okie! So now that you know how to help out, start doing & get good karma at the same time too! Heehee!


P.S. Loving my new hair colour, new contact lenses & new shirt in the above pic! Will post more about it next time!

TTFN peeps!

And another week has flew by~

*Flutter Flutter Flutter*

*Whoosh Whoosh Whoosh!*

-----------------------BEEP-------------------------

Okie! CPR done & blog revived!

-.-

Lame I know~ But who cares!! Whahahaha!

I have lots of photos to be posted here but I'm just sooooo lazy to do so~ I need motivation! Pronto~

Maybe I should start with what I was doing before my 1 week of study 'break'. (It was a lie! There was hardly any rest for us!)


Attended SMUBE Bash and had a great time there with my fellow club mates and boy! They were a bunch of crazy, high people! Hahaha!

Manaaged to know more people there and also the seniors! The previous day was the VPH Finals and kudos to all the finalists! They did an awesome job on stage & the respective winners totally deserve their titles!

Love all the videos that they made! Whahahaha!

So enough yakking and I shall post all the photos I took to make this post seem really long~ =p
P.S. All photos in this post were taken with my iPhone thus the quality of it~ But I will totally promise to utilize my camera if I replace my current Sony one now. >D

Was giving out tons of balloons before the event.

I really thought I was going to fly up into the air & visit Niagara Falls. But then I decided that too many people would miss me so I flew back down. =p

Heart the backdrop!


And throughout the whole contest, I felt that the pairings were really well-matched! The VPH committee was awesome in it!

The coolest voting slips that I've ever saw!

Wanted to kope it for myself when I saw it. Kessler had dibs on Ne-Yo first. Pssft~

Left earlier to meet dearest boyf for dinner & we went to Popeyes where I camwhored whilst waiting for him~


Next day was the BE Bash which the theme was: Love-Hate Event
Which basically means that all of us had to don on a hat. Or rather, head gear~

And so, pictures again!

Kessler & his styling beanie~


With Brandon.


Suhailah & Olivia~


Ada!
She's super good with picking out 'ada' in words. LOL!


Lydia! A really cool babe~


David & his awesome hair~ LOL!


Marcus & Stanley.


Chicken Man!

His headgear was seriously so awesome la! And needless to say, he won the best 'hat' of the night! LOL!

The view from the venue~


Don't you think he look like the hunter in L4D with his jacket? Whahahaha!


And it's Stanley again with yours truly~


Had a really great time there!

Can't wait to meet them again. heex~

And so, next day was the day where I saikang-ed for Leen's Sandplay photoshoot @ Fort Canning~

Gotta say, out of all the times I've been there for photoshoot, that day was the coolest~

And I'm seriously thinking of wearing this for the Harry Potter 7th Movie! XDD

Trying to jio as many people to wear it & go watch. Muahahahaha!

Green tea is good for cooling yourself off~


Lying on the grass & enjoying the breeze whilst waiting~


Kira-fied by Kuromi~


One of my fav photo of the day~

Taken using an app on my phone. Love the effects~

And its me again!


With my 'boyfriend'!


After a tiring day, we all went for makan & played GoNDie!~


Looked at how serious they are!



Okie! Time to end this post off & continue choing-ing my projects!!~